Sex and Prozac

Guys on Prozac probably know where this is going.

I may be making an assumption here, but I feel safe in generalizing that the great majority of those suffering from depression have associated image and esteem issues. That being the case, it's terribly ironic that the popular treatments for depression cause difficulty in sexual performance. Obviously there's a disconnect (heh) here. Even when everything works it still becomes much more like work and less like fun. Which sucks. So you get depressed, take medication, impact your sex life, feel worse about yourself, take more medicine... you can see where this is heading.

I can often tell how effective the level of medication I'm on is by how easy sex is. A bit of a catch 22, really, once sex starts getting easier and more enjoyable then I know my depression is about to get worse. And in reverse fashion, once I start feeling better, there goes the sex. Of course, one could always respond by more medication, but the insurance companies are awfully stingy with Viagra, seems they want to try and tell you how often to have sex.

Sore Throat

I spent fifteen minutes screaming at God the other day.



Actually it was my therapist who suggested it. I'm angry, and the one I'm most angry at is God, if you want to put a face on it. I'm not going to go into the details of my reasons, even a blogger gets a little privacy, but my life has felt like the target of a bored cat, something to be played with. So right or wrong, that's how I feel and the anger and frustration I harbor fills me more and more. So she says I won't heal until I deal with the anger.

So I shouted at God, told the deity(if any) what I thought of someone who would play around with someone's life as it feels mine has been played with. Said things that two-thirds of the christian community would no doubt declare put my down payment on lake-front property in Hell. If so at the moment being damned feels neither better nor worse than I was before.


All it really seemed to get me was a sore throat.